I experienced a lot of abuse growing up. Some physical, some mental, all due to the effects of abuse on my mom and stepdad… it disperses onto others like a wave. It was disturbing to me, learning of the abuses my mother endured, the abuses her mother endured, and the lack of support they had… Continue reading Moral Dilema
Author: kate
Punishing vs Rewarding
Always seemed weird to me, how people debate punishing vs rewarding, as though you can’t do both. A healthy mix of punishing, and rewarding,, based entirely on proportional and relativistic responses, that don’t become absurd or physically threatening… is always most effective. Only punishing removes incentive. Thus removing motivation. Rewarding only, has more complex downsides,… Continue reading Punishing vs Rewarding
Lying to Cope
I know I’ve come a long way, working through my issues, to remove my need to smoke weed daily. And I’m astounded now looking at who I was, compared to who I am today… especially with the knowledge that, I did not change this much between 8 and 28… it took the past 4 years,… Continue reading Lying to Cope
Pretending to be the Monster
One of the more saddening concepts I had to learn, while dealing with people who experience emotional distress… is that people who have suffered from abuse, will try to “prove” themselves to be the monsters they fear they are, and I believe it to be their way of warning others. I’ve noticed a similar concept… Continue reading Pretending to be the Monster
The Religion I Chose
Despite the fact that I even have a hard time calling this a religion, this is the single belief that fits the area of my mind longing for such a construct, and as close as I can consciously get to believing in anything that is not already proven by scientific testing. This belief for me… Continue reading The Religion I Chose
The Never-Ending Pandemic
Back when COVID first began, I realized immediately that it wasn’t going to end, there was no chance to “flatten the curve”, purely because I’d been paying attention to politics for so long, and the anti-vaxxer movement. Even visiting a hospital way before COVID, while I was in Toronto, and seeing anti-vaxxer messages scrawled` on… Continue reading The Never-Ending Pandemic
Games I want to Let’s Play
So I knew right away the first game I would play was Ocarina of Time for 3DS, and I’ve already decided the second will be Majora’s Mask for 3DS… I’m honestly kind of thinking for my Monday/Wednesday/Friday episodes I’ll stick with the 3DS for now because I’d also love to replay the remake of the… Continue reading Games I want to Let’s Play
But They did it First!
Having lived with roommates for a while now, and trying to better myself as I get older, I’m trying to distance myself from the idea of doing something, because someone else did it first. As cathartic as it can be, one of the major flaws with this especially when living with a lot of others,… Continue reading But They did it First!
Growing Up with Abuse
As an adult, it’s taken me a long time to truly come to terms with the abuse I suffered as a child. I had the dishonor of taking part in arguments about “Who’s abuse was worse”, as well as the torment of knowing that I will have to live out my entire life with these… Continue reading Growing Up with Abuse
Starting a Let’s Play Series
This is something I’d wanted to do for years, but, the more times I tried to find someone to do it with me, the more I learnt some people will 100% tell you they’re up to it, and proceed to ghost you. I get it, there was a lot of anxiety recording the fist 6… Continue reading Starting a Let’s Play Series