I know I’ve come a long way, working through my issues, to remove my need to smoke weed daily. And I’m astounded now looking at who I was, compared to who I am today… especially with the knowledge that, I did not change this much between 8 and 28… it took the past 4 years,… Continue reading Lying to Cope
Tag: Mental Health
Pretending to be the Monster
One of the more saddening concepts I had to learn, while dealing with people who experience emotional distress… is that people who have suffered from abuse, will try to “prove” themselves to be the monsters they fear they are, and I believe it to be their way of warning others. I’ve noticed a similar concept… Continue reading Pretending to be the Monster
The Religion I Chose
Despite the fact that I even have a hard time calling this a religion, this is the single belief that fits the area of my mind longing for such a construct, and as close as I can consciously get to believing in anything that is not already proven by scientific testing. This belief for me… Continue reading The Religion I Chose
The Never-Ending Pandemic
Back when COVID first began, I realized immediately that it wasn’t going to end, there was no chance to “flatten the curve”, purely because I’d been paying attention to politics for so long, and the anti-vaxxer movement. Even visiting a hospital way before COVID, while I was in Toronto, and seeing anti-vaxxer messages scrawled` on… Continue reading The Never-Ending Pandemic
But They did it First!
Having lived with roommates for a while now, and trying to better myself as I get older, I’m trying to distance myself from the idea of doing something, because someone else did it first. As cathartic as it can be, one of the major flaws with this especially when living with a lot of others,… Continue reading But They did it First!
Growing Up with Abuse
As an adult, it’s taken me a long time to truly come to terms with the abuse I suffered as a child. I had the dishonor of taking part in arguments about “Who’s abuse was worse”, as well as the torment of knowing that I will have to live out my entire life with these… Continue reading Growing Up with Abuse
Starting a Let’s Play Series
This is something I’d wanted to do for years, but, the more times I tried to find someone to do it with me, the more I learnt some people will 100% tell you they’re up to it, and proceed to ghost you. I get it, there was a lot of anxiety recording the fist 6… Continue reading Starting a Let’s Play Series
Cancel Culture
On an almost daily basis, I learn about some new thing being cancelled, books (such as Maus), or other media. It seems like there’s a never ending stream of content being cancelled in various forms, by various organizations, for various reasons. But the most toxic aspect of all of this is pretending that this is… Continue reading Cancel Culture
Control and Abuse
Being the victim of abuse growing up, I resent my mother and step-dad to this day, but, it wasn’t until I became an adult and tried to understand it all that I started to realize how far down the chain it truly goes. Having had the chance to speak to family members on my mother’s… Continue reading Control and Abuse
Extremism on Any Topic
Extremism is becoming more and more common and mainstream, and largely a bipartisan issue. And largely, as one side starts to push further and further towards their ideals, it pushes the other side as a direct response. Seemingly like some form of snake mixed with tug of war, the rope is being pulled, but it’s… Continue reading Extremism on Any Topic